Okay… let me first say that the only thing I have accomplished so far this week was the AA meeting I got my ass to tonight. I needed to talk to my sponsor and we did talk over yummy cheesecake and coffee at the diner across the street after the meeting. The meeting was good (always). The speaker was awesome.
I feel like everything is unraveling at such a high rate of speed that my frayed ends of sanity are escaping through my broken hands. Yeah, that was a bit dramatic. Maybe I still have my flair…. I don’t know.
I haven’t written all week so far (hope to get an opportunity tomorrow in work at some point). I have read a few blogs.
Basically my teenage daughter is driving me insane. I was listening in the room tonight about how everyone’s life is so wonderful and how everything is just falling together. ?? Where is my wonderful togetherness? I have been working damn hard for five plus years now. When do I get to say, ‘FINALLY!’
I know, I know. I am feeling sorry for myself. I recognize that. Self-pity is a character flaw (yes – I have flaws) that seeps out from time to time. I learned that my job in recovery is not to kill all the nasty flaws, but to keep some and work with them.
“Give it to God,” they say. OK………… I have been trying! Maybe I am not doing it right.
Anyway… sorry to be the party pooper, but I just feel like something has to give.
Good luck to all my ROW80 chums this round. I am sure you all are working darn hard. I am proud of you all!
Goals for this week: