Keeping It Real

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So I was watching the Oprah Winfrey Network (OWN) this morning and there were all these fascinating episodes that dealt with “self.” Like, how we treat the self, how outside events impact the self and so much stuff I went out and bought a book by one of the people Oprah was interviewing.  “The Untethered Soul” by Michael A. Singer.  The book is to liberate us from a contained self-image.

Based solely on the interview, the information I gathered from the show and snippets of the book I scanned, I have hope that this book will break me through my final barrier… me.

I have always tried to keep it real.  I’ve tried to remain grounded in all I do, say or feel along with trying to be there for anyone who crosses my life path. But there are these things, these feelings, that get in the way on a consistent basis.  And when I let my head get the best of me, I am no longer keeping it real per say, but getting sucked into a myopic array of disillusionment which takes me back to that dark room of self-loathing.

Yeah, pretty messed up stuff.  The more messed up part of all this crap is that I project this putrid bile onto other human beings.  Instead of just being in a moment or looking at things for what they are, I tend to read deeper into whatever is going on and then I project my thoughts, insecurities and the like others.

This leads to:

  • self-doubt
  • self-loathing
  • insecurity
  • feeling less than
  • depression
  • self-sabotage
  • resentment

That is a pretty hefty list of awful feelings, ideals and all around yuckiness.

Lately, I have been way up in my head.  This is a tough place for me when I am trying to live a life of peace.  My head is not peaceful.  It is constantly chattering, whispering and telling me rotten things.  I believe these things.  I give my thoughts weight and that is when the horrible list above comes into play.  I used to drink and drug to get rid of these thoughts and feelings.  Drinking and drugging is not an option for me.

This is why I bought the book.  My thoughts (and yours) are so automatic, I never question them.  You’ve heard the saying, “I think, therefore I am.” UGH!!! How awful is that? I certainly do not want to be what I think!  My twelve-step program helps ( a lot!) but lately I just feel like I need an added tool.

As I go through this book (highlighting sentences and paragraphs like I always do) I will be updating my blog with what I have learned and if any of it is making sense.  It made sense on Oprah’s show, therefore, I am sure it will make sense.

Also, I signed up for 21 Day Meditation Challenge.  It is free and looks like a lot of fun.  Check it out!

How do you battle your demons?

Comments

  1. I like what Joanna said about dealing with her inner demons. In fact, I think you’ve given me subject for my blog tomorrow.

  2. Joanna Aislinn says:

    Hate when the “itty bitty committee” in my head goes on parade!

    My inner demons take on many forms: anxiety re: finances, kids, aging parent(s) and many of those you listed above. Hubby doesn’t help with his obsession with the current political climate and its impact. I could go on but I won’t.

    How I deal: prayer, slogans and two constant reminders: God is in control and I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be in God’s plan. He is faithful and I need to be as well.

    Great post! Happy Sunday (what’s left of it, anyway)! :)

    • Hi Joanna.. :) That sounds like a great way to deal with things… maybe I’ll try that.. Happy Monday night to you!! ha ha… I hope you had a good one and thank you so much for being a faithful follower and commenter on my blog. It really means a lot that you share your experiences with me.. :)

      • Joanna Aislinn says:

        HI Darlene,
        You’re very welcome. Promise I get way more than I give by reading your posts! Had to remind myself today God is in control–a meeting on the third step didn’t hurt neither ;). Take care and keep crankin’ out that great stuff!

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