I Am Deactivated

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Yes… I finally deactivated my Facebook account.  I’ll tell you why.  Because a person like me should not be on a thing, succubus, demon .. whatever you want to call it.  It is a huge time suck that frustrates and upsets the hell out of me.  I was on there today and thought, ‘Why the frig am I torturing myself like this?”

I have a body image problem and being on Facebook does NOT HELP.  Seeing all my boyfriends new recent friends that are female DOES NOT HELP.  Airbrushed images of almost nude women posted by groups and friends does not help.

All of it hinders me, makes me feel bad about myself and then I isolate and rerun old tapes in my head about “why I am not good enough.”

It’s bullshit.  I don’t need it.  I don’t want it.  So I am on a Facebook Hiatus indefinitely.  I will definitely be blogging more!  I landed an internship with a Philadelphia online music magazine so I am stoked about that! I sent my novel to an editor and am still writing for brutalism.com.

I have way too much positive, substantial stuff going on for myself.  I refuse to ruin it for me.  And since I know me these days (like really know me) I know what makes me happy, sad, jealous, confused, angry, etc… so I am off to work on that and stay away from one of the triggers.

Peace out friends!!  You’ll be hearing from me a little more in the near future.

Love, Darlene

Comments

  1. Congratulations on all the positive steps forward. I understand precisely the situation with facebook. I have an ongoing love/hate reltionship with it and still haven’t found a positive reason for staying – but I’m still there.

  2. I’ve been away from Facebook for almost a half a year, and it continues to feel grand. The move was impulsive, but the consequences have been enduringly sweet. :)

  3. Congratulations on the internship, Darlene.

    So far as the self-image is concerned, always remember that you were created in the image of God and that He sent His Son to purchase YOUR salvation. And if you ever wonder whether or not anyone cares, always know that I do.

  4. Joanna Aislinn says:

    Congrats on the wonderful news, Darlene. I enjoy Facebook, but i can take it or leave it. I feel the same way about all social media, but I have gotten lots of positive connections out of it. Thats where my interactions are. I take what I like and leave the rest. Best wishes on your novel!

  5. I understand completely. Just remember, Darlene – you are a beautiful person inside and out. Congrats on the internship and good luck with the novel! Wishing you the very best in all. :-)

  6. Congrats on the internship, Darlene. That is a big cause for celebration.

    I know how you feel about Facebook. I have 2 Facebook accounts, one is for my writer stuff, and the other is my personal account I’ve had for years, which I barely use, because I am sick and tired of seeing people upload photos of themselves preening for the camera and bragging about how epic their life is. If their life was so epic, they wouldn’t be interrupting their wedding party, night out, meal at a restaurant and so forth to upload a pic from their iPhone of said epic life, wedding party, meal etc. The people behind Facebook should think about adding a Dislike button. I’d be hitting that quite frequently. :)

  7. Congratulations on getting the internship!

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